Jenn's death has hit me much harder than I would like to admit. I'm still mourning and I'm fighting the process because of some misplaced sense of my lack of importance in her life - almost like I wasn't close enough to her to be as sad as I am. This is of course not true. My feelings are my feelings and they are valid and true and I have to accept them and work through them allowing myself to be in the moment with them. I don't want to wallow, but I do want to experience my sadness and grief - it's the healthy thing to do. I'm working on it.
Knitting has been my primary way of coping these last few months.
These are all the things I knit just before Christmas - all but one were gifts.
I haven't been doing a lot of knitting the last few weeks, but I have discovered quilling and I've become somewhat obsessed. Quilling is a paper art that uses strips of paper coiled into shapes to create objects or pictures. I've been making snowflakes among other things.
here's a picture of my new art space where I do a lot of my quilling
here's a picture of trees I did with quilling
here's one of the many snowflakes I've created
and this is a snowflake pendant I created - I'm going to make it into a necklace for myself.
As you can see when I discover a new hobby I get a little obsessive.
As for knitting - I'm still thinking of a Etsy shop where I can sell some of my knitted items as well as perhaps some quilled art, so I'm working on a cardigan using up some of my stash yarn to sell.
One of the very few goals I've set for myself is to become a published author this year. I've now written 2 novels for Nanowrimo (National Novel Writing Month - nanowrimo.org) during the last 2 Novembers and this year I will edit both of them, submit one to a publisher and self publish the other one. At least that is the plan. Stay tuned for more details as I get my butt in gear.
So that is what is up with me. I just keep on keeping on living my life day by day. Not much changes, but I continue to do my best being the wife and mother that I am.
